For as long as I could remember, I had been playing and teaching myself how to play the piano for myself, and myself only. It was an opportunity for me to just enjoy the music I listened too even further and to explore different sounds. I even took lessons as a child, but never enjoyed it due to how structured everything needed to be. It took away everything the piano was for me, which was creative and fun. 

So I quit and stuck to teaching myself songs in my own time. This was why I initially said no, as I assumed it would just be the same case as last time. However, after a few weeks, Abby explained to me what her work was about, and basically wanted to gauge whether I would be interested. I went home to consider it. My Mum encouraged me. She believed it would be beneficial and at least worth a try. I agreed to do it.

My first session consisted of just showing Abby what I knew, although I was still very clearly a bit hesitant due to nerves. Abby eventually suggested trying out improvisation after a few weeks. This was NOT within my comfort zone since I had always just followed a specific order of keys to press. Over time it became less awkward for me and I was able to gain an understanding as to why I was doing this. I found that this also helped me improve my ability to play a song due to more appreciation of the notes and rhythm. By 2019, music therapy was one of the lessons I looked forward to the most. I had always wanted to share the songs and bands that inspired me but never had the confidence to (Mainly Twenty One Pilots because I’m “edgy” like that). 

In music therapy, this was encouraged. Therefore I found it therapeutic to be able to do this. I even began to experiment by composing my own song, which I showed to Abby who helped me improve and expand on. I know for a fact that I would never have the confidence to try and make my own song, let alone share it before music therapy.

Another big thing for me, was singing. I always enjoy singing in my room to songs and even the piano at the same time as I play. I would never sing in front of people though. I knew it was eventually coming, and I was hoping that she’d forget about it; but Abby eventually asked me to sing a piece of the song I was playing (AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH). I was petrified, but once I was done she reassured me that it sounded good which was a major confidence boost. We’re currently attempting to learn a Christmas song in time for the presentation, which I’m a bit apprehensive about currently, but we’ve made it this far so I guess we’ll see how I feel closer to the time.

Overall, music therapy has allowed me to express the side of me that I feel I wouldn’t usually get the chance to, and even if I did, I wouldn’t have the confidence to. Compared to when I started, I am much more open and willing to share my ability within music, which is what I had always wanted to do. I’ve come on leaps and bounds since starting the sessions with Abbey, and I’m thankful for the opportunity to work with her over the past year. Let’s see what I can achieve during the rest of the school year. "